- This is not a short happy ending Disney princess story -
How many of you believe in love at the first sight? Or how many of you believe in seeing someone from across the room and knowing instantly that they are going to matter to you? Some people do, some may not, but for me, I do and that's going to change my whole life.
This is a story about a girl who met a boy that she never thought that he would end up meaning this much to her. And the girl is me.
Psychological fact said, it only takes 8 seconds of eye contact for love at the first sight to happen. So I started to count and all stories began since then. I am not going to start telling you about how we met, or other 'once upon a time' sentences, but I am going to tell you how it feels to meet the real first love that makes you realize that your first love wasn't really your first love.
I still remember the feeling when he asked me out again for our second meeting, just right a day after we met for the first time. A voice in my heart said, "Go, you will be thankful for this day later." and so I decided to go. After we are home, he said to me, "Its kinda crazy how I think about meeting you." At that time, I was questioning my self if I should believe him or not. I kept going to find out. Days past and it was the time for him to go, not leaving me, but leaving the place and going back to his home. The real things, began here.
Yes, we are facing a long distance relationship, for about 11.329 km away and 5-6 hours time difference. I don't know how it will work, or what kind of game he plays. I was afraid of love, never thought about that before. It's a risk. A big risk. But now it comes to me. Take it or end it now. There are only two options, and each of them will take me to the different path.
I choose one of them, and still choose it until now. No one ever say that a long distance relationship is easy. It takes courage and pours your soul out. He is not here for me to hug every time I have the bad dreams, and the worse, he is not here for me to hug every time I feel happy. When other couples can arrange their date on the weekend, we prepare our internet connection, talking screen to screen.
He is the real beautiful kind of madness, my favorite type of chaos, confusingly dragging me into his hazardous world, revealing the hysteria of my soul. He takes me to the new place I never imagine before, but yet it feels like something that I belong for a long time, it is like a dejavu. I was instantly connected to him, my heart knew for sure, I must have known him from before.
He is my magic wand, only with one magic sentence, he fixed me. He comes and takes the weight off my shoulders and dries every teardrops. I feel like everything in my life has led me to him. My choices, my heartbreaks, my regrets, everything. And when we are together, my past seems worth it because if I had done one thing differently, I might never have met him.
He is the best Christmas gift I ever had. He changes my world with just a single smile. He is precious in every way, the sunshine of my life, a joy for my soul, a never ending rhythm that playing on my mind. He remind me of the goodness in this world and inspire me to be the greatest version of myself. When he kissed me for the first time, I know that my lost piece has back. He completes me in every single way.
I fall in love with him for every single reasons, he might not never know. I choose one of them, I take him. I choose him, and I will choose him over and over and over again. Without pause, without a doubt, in my heartbeat, I will always keep choosing him.
He is the love that came without a warning; he had my heart before I could say no. It surprises me like it surprises him too. I didn't plan to go to that night as he didn't plan to go far east and fall in love. It happened to us, and we are happy to have each other.
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